DAY 1 : 16/03/16
I used to be so full of colorful things, imagination beyond
everything u can see in reality. It was easy to get two page done without
getting stress about it. I enjoy it. It give u adrenaline effect when u write. I
remembered how it feels, the joy of the thing in ur mind that u cant spoke,
then it came out without being afraid that it is wrong or right. Well, same for
today right? Writing is not about you and your thought being accepted, i think
its about you and that thought of yours become something in this world, even no
one notice. Be confident with it, love it. Who else will appreciate it if its
not yourself? Family. Well thats make sense.
Oh look i can get one paragraph. Its funny. I hardly made it
2 sentence if its for job.
Back to the topic. Why i say forgot how to write. Its
impossible for everyone dont know how to write. Its not that ‘write’ that i
referred, i mean the feeling you get when you had to write something. I think i
lose it. I have explained it above what it feels like when u write. But
somehow, i lose it, Its not enjoying thing anymore, i no longer confident with
what i think. Its not just that, i also lost the ideas, the weight of my
writing. I write something, but its meaningless. Im so sad to read something so
light and empty. I am a perfection. Or maybe my mind thought to become that
figure. But it is toatally the antonym of my way of thinking. It crashed. With this perfection mind, i tend to compare
mine with others. It was become big walls that i cant set my plane to fly off,
block the street with its giant rock. Turn into maze that i hardly escape from
it. I was trapped.
I never notice it, i dont know where when and why this
happen. Is it happen to some people too? Is it happen to agatha christie when
she was teenage. Or did J.K Rowling ever have this problem? Maybe im too
exaggerated, but with writing this , i hope ican slowly remmber and get back my
‘write’.
Its not the end yet. And pardon my english, spelling, etc.
And for your information im currently studying my diploma 3 on STAN. Congrtas for me, No no not yet. I have to survive. wkwk. Wish me luck ya.
